A Grief Observed 1&2

It is hard to read this book, for many reasons. I am in a serious relationship right now and it is a horrible fear to loose her already, and obviously we are not even married! This is a grief that i cannot even begin to comprehend, nor do i want to. How can one handle loosing his soul mate and partner in life. They are your best friend and lover and partner. The thought of loosing that would be horrible and unbearable, but ironically that is a part of everyones life. Death is inevitable and it will happen to everyone. The common theme that i have found in all of our readings, at least most of them is reality. Most of these stories have a reality that is common with life. They are real stories that could happen to anyone and some of them have happened. Its funny because most of the time, we want to read about the flowery stories and the mushy gushy stuff in life, which that is great, but what about the real problems in life that we all will have to face? this is just like hollywood, which very rarely shows the real stories. Most of the time it is romantic stories or outrageously fake superhero stories. But i find that the most helpful readings and movies are the ones with real substance, ones that we can relate to. Unfortunately, there will come a time in my life when i will relate to C.S Lewis in this book, as someone close to me will inevitably pass away. The thing that i liked most about these two chapters is that C.S. Lewis is very real with God. He calls him an imbecile. Lewis is transparent in this reading and he is not afraid to let his feelings be known. There are many things in life that make us question God, and just like David did in Psalms, we can question Him and ask why? We might not get our answer now but we serve a God who allows us to be real with Him. Another intriuging part of the book is when Lewis is talking about the image of 'H' or his wife. He is creating an image based off of memories which are already blurred from seeing her in so many different angles and situations. He then goes on to say that if he could just see her alive again for 10 seconds, then the real image would appear, but the snow flakes would begin to fall again shorty after the real image was gone. This was so sad, because it is true. I can relate this story to mainly the song Franky and Johny and a couple of other readings about love. Love is amazing, but pain is something that is a part of life and suffering is something we all will face. Literature helps us cope with that pain by writing and reading about it.